The end of the line

“Write what disturbs you, what you fear, what you have not been willing to speak about. Be willing to be split open.” –Natalie Goldberg About six months ago I voluntarily checked myself into a psychiatric hospital. There’s a difference between telling people you suffer from a mental illness and telling people you have spent time in […]

The loneliness of depression

And so I remind myself: an imperfect word is sometimes better than silence, a pale metaphor better than suicide. Researchers and therapists want to understand problems in their broad dimensions; families and friends want to make sense of their afflicted loved ones; and, of course, those who suffer in isolation, starved for connection, mad with […]

Please, listen

Dear Insurance Provider, I thought you might be interested to know that I just left my intensive outpatient therapy in tears. You’re probably also interested as to why this is a concern of yours. It’s a concern of yours because you decided that you were not allotting me anymore days for treatment. Apparently you, knower […]

When I’m tired

“That’s the thing I want to make clear about depression: It’s got nothing at all to do with life. In the course of life, there is sadness and pain and sorrow, all of which, in their right time and season, are normal — unpleasant, but normal. Depression is an altogether different zone because it involves […]

Continuing the conversation

A few days ago my sister sent me this post. If you haven’t already read it… you should immediately. After reading it I felt as though I needed to keep the conversation going and write about my own struggles with depression. For those of you who read my blog or follow me on social media, […]